Blue
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(1/20/03 10:03 pm)
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I thought I should tell you
Hey you, I was thinking about you today. Truth is I think about you often. We haven’t spoken in months and I notice I’ve even fallen off your e-mail forward list, though that’s actually a blessing. Really, it’s poor etiquette to send those damn things on.
It was a crazy ride wasn’t it? Certainly never dull but sadly more pain than either of us could handle. I wish I knew why I acted that way. I used to try to understand why you did those things, but I finally let them go. It doesn’t much matter in the end does it?
We had so much fun together, even if only for a moment. It’s as though we were one tooth out of alignment in our universe. Instead of making beautiful music together, we were like water on a magnesium fire – violent explosions punctuated with intense heat.
I never told you, but maybe I should. I was always in awe of you. Such beauty and grace. Your honest laugh and freckled face. A tender heart of gold, a smile to melt even diamonds and those legs…oh my.
I never felt as though I deserved you in my life. You had so many friends and I was always threatened by that. You lived in a different world than I, where I didn’t know the rules or the players, an outsider. I foisted my insecurities on you and that wasn’t fair I know. It’s only now that I’ve figured it out. I was so worried that you’d be swept away that I never let you get close. I’m sorry – you deserved better.
I want you to know that my silence is not a reflection of how I think of you. Like I said, I think of you often and it is always with warmth and affection in my heart. I wish only the best for you in your life. Take care of yourself and always remember you are loved.
Your friend
Edited by: Blue at: 1/20/03 10:03:57 pm
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