Taking a Board Break
I'm just overwhelmed with things right now...I miss being pregnant and have been thinking a lot about where I should be in my pregnancy lately. And I'm really excited about moving into our new house, but it also makes me think that there is going to be an empty bedroom that should've been filled in June. All that stuff is just too much for me right now. I'll probably lurk, just won't post. I need to try and relax the next few weeks (long cycles) before O.
My plan is to stay busy with happy things and not become obsessed with the "could've should'ves". Gonna go out and do a little shopping tomorrow I think. Start a journal. Get my thoughts together.
Congrats to all the BFPs! to all of those still waiting! Take care! I'll be thinking of you all!
I understand your need for a board break. I was actually going through a little of the same thing myself this past month, and didn't post quite as much for a while.
My husband and I were just talking tonight about how our grieving process evolved after the m/c in Nov. The first month for us was when we were the most "raw." By the end of December, and through January...we were newly concentrating on TTC once again and felt hopeful. But by the end of February and into March (especially with illness, etc) we were starting to feel a bit down again that we hadn't yet conceived...and would find ourselves being reminded again more of our loss.
I tell you this, not to say how your healing process "should" go...but I think so that you can see that you're not alone, and your feelings are going to ebb & flow. But taking a break from the boards can be VERY helpful to keep you from drowning in thoughts of TTC. Even now I can see I'll need to get away from it from time to time to keep my thoughts positive during my pgcy.
I guess I should close this for now since it's quickly becoming another one of my novels! But I didn't want for you to leave the board (lurking or not) without me being able to send a big cyber-hug to my friend!
Me too. I keep thinking about should have beens, but the truth is tha we've all been set back to zero. Starting from here again feels unfair - but it's the ony option we have.
So take some time away and do whatever makes you feel good, whole, and healthy.
We'll be here when/if you return.
"Godspeed, little man. Sweet dreams, little man. Oh my love will fly to you each night on angels wings. Godspeed. Sweet dreams." My Chart
Re: Taking a Board Break
Aubrey, we all have times that we feel stronger and times we don't. If you feel that you need a break, don't worry that we won't still be here for you!
I have to admit, it has been five months since my loss, and I can still get into a funk about things. In all honesty, I don't think that I have really smiled and really "felt good" until last month.
So take your time. Share with us on the times you feel like (good or bad). I hope you find something to enjoy that you will find theraputic.
Re: Taking a Board Break
Aubrey, I totally understand how you feel. I, like Lisa too, have been feeling disappointed that I haven't conceived yet since my loss in Jan. I keep thinking that I should be X number of weeks by now. I've just been too bummed to post.
I hope your journal and your move helps you. And now that its finally spring, maybe we'll all feel some of that reborn, magic feeling. Take care!
Debbie
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to all of those still waiting! Take care! I'll be thinking of you all! 
Aubrey, take as much time as you need, hon - and :lurk as you please, but come back A.S.A.P!
Lisa 
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