What I am thinking today....

wolfscout1

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(8/30/04 11:18 am)
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I think you don't give yourself enough credit with what youdo.
Craft includes some part of yourself/.spirit going into each thing you create even if something is borrowed or what have you...

and I love the images all i've seen. They speak volume so me.

~~~
OWP , Larry's Place

narshaadha

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(8/30/04 7:55 pm)
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Oh my gosh, Gaia, you did something in my room????? I was just floating around through the individual rooms and haven't gone there yet. Whooohoooo! Gotta go have a look.

SMOOTCH!!
narshaadha :hug3

Gaia Angel

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(8/30/04 10:42 pm)
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Narsh, you and amber are two of the few people on board whos favorite things I kinda know. lol If your not happy with it let me know...i can always use it in another room so dont wory...my feeliings wont be hurt, angels honor :snick

Thank you wolf....ya know, you really do inspire me and boost my confidence. :hug

If you understood the way I tend to think you would know what a true accomplishment that is! lol I tend to be my toughest critic, but thats ok because I also have a tendency to be my bestest friend. And when the critic voice is loudest, I have my darling shad and all my other wonderfull friends to tell iot to shut up! lol

There never seems to be enough time in the day....4 kids....4 homeworks that need help, one a 5 page personal narrative. *sigh* I am now trying to teach sam the fine art of detail....detail a story and it can last 5 pages...more if necessary lol! Not to mention pauls uniforms that need to be washed, four school outfits that need to be washed and laid out, shoes to be found, homework to be signed, yada yada yada. *'nother sigh*

Were my life perfect, I would have had time to do the clothes before school and work ended and homework and pleas of "honey my back hurts" began. (YOUR back hurts???) But, my life is sadly mundane and far from perfect. Thalia LOVES the mommy and me time. so much so that during the day, if i try to get her to play by herself she acts out. Today, within 10 mins. she A) poured out my bulk sized bucket of laundry soap B) pulled every tissue out of TWO boxes of tissues, C) climbed into the living room window on the side that is a good 15 to 20 feet from the ground and finally D) climbed onto the air conditioner and leaped of into the floor. (Flying punkins! DUCK!)

So, I logged off (*sadness*) gathered her up, went and played "where is punkin" for an hour, sang EVERY wiggles song i knew (and some i dont, doing to corresponding dances to each and every one) Then we hunkered down on mommys bed with cups of tomato soup (big treat! mommy usually makes her eat in the kitchen!) and watched recess. I was so proud of her, she made very little mess and insisted on using a spoon and not drinking the soup. (ME? I drank the damn soup lol) then we rinsed our dishes (I scraped, she rinsed) pottied, (Both of us on our respective
potties...yesssss we had to potty together...i think only moms will appreciate this concept lmao) and went to the bedroom for a tickle session (which started after we washed her hands and she started "spassing" mommy! I chased her into the bedroom and we tickled and giigle for another 30 mins or so. then cuddled up (she insisted on snuggling in to my arms.) and watched recess and pokemon. By the end of pokemon we were fast asleep and happily wrapped in eachothers arms until everyone else came home. (did i mention i locked the door and didnt hear the kids knock over the air conditioner? yeah they had to stay at mamaws for a half hour....oooops? Really need to get them a key i guess)

Then the hard part began...and by 10 i was near tears. not to mention, between paul and the older kids i STILL had to find "mommy and punky nickjr.com time"! I am exhausted, sore, but writing about my day with thalia has calmed me alot...i remeber just WHY i do the things i do now!

OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! and i cant forget the GREATEST part of my day!!!! sam handed me yet another paper to sign, I grabbed it in irritation only to scream and grab him tightly....MY BABY IS IN THE GIFTED AND TALENTED PROGRAM.....For ALLLLLLLLLLLLL subjects!!! dont that just ROCK!?! I was soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo proud of my baby boy!!!!

Ok, I am going to go fold laundry and proof his paper. Much love yall and thank you for all that you give me just by being in my life! :hug

Ladifaire

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(8/30/04 11:36 pm)
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You do wonderfull things with graphics, very creative and cool too, and at least you have coffee , lol I am out!!!! :yourock

irisgoddess

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(8/31/04 1:01 am)
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Gaia I love you. Please don't take this the wrong way but take it from some one like me some of us would love to have your life. well the kids anyway

Gaia Angel

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(8/31/04 5:07 am)
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oh god iris i am so so sorry :nono

Ya know, you really have to say "tonya subject change" you know me sweety....on lips out mouth. I was sooooooo tired and annoyed, and sometimes when i bitch i remeber just WHY i doi it...it helps me cope, im sorry.

Gaia Angel

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(9/5/04 9:10 am)
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Puppies puppies everywhere!

the pups have found their adventure legs and were pooping up my bedroom....so i moved them to the laundry room which is good sized for lots of playing, doors for keeping punkin away, and linnoleum so i can keep the "oh so many puppy" smell at bay. Hermes definately nows who his two legged mommy is...and punch climbs me for attention whenever i go in there...man im in trouble...i love them all and have named more then half *sighs me*

Ladifaire

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(9/6/04 8:45 am)
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Goodness how many pups do you have now?

Gaia Angel

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(9/6/04 8:57 am)
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still only 9 sherry....but with em rinning around feels like more! lol
fancy isnt nurseing them as much whicxh worried me so i put a dish of soft cat food and water in there and they little bit it to death and it seems to healp with the in between hunger.

guess what??? my hot water heater got fixed yeahhhhhhhh!

Ladifaire

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(9/7/04 7:43 am)
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Only 9 lol that is alot of puppies how old are they ? maybe she is getting close to weaning them.
good luck with the extended family
love sherry :yourock

Gaia Angel

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(9/7/04 9:56 pm)
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they will be a month the 10th....and she only nursed twice today,so i think she is trying to ween. they do really well on soft foods and water so im not to worried.

I feel like shit. I keep trying modern med to no avail and remeber nowwhy i dont bother lol im gonna look into other cures and such. anyone know any stones the promote kidney health? or herbs?

Astara1

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(9/8/04 7:31 am)
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You do so much! :omg

I remember seeing a list somewhere of stones and what ailments they help, I see if I can find it again.
:lots

~Dreams are your own unique source of guidance and healing~

Astara1

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(9/8/04 7:45 am)
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Found it already, the whole list is at Universai Beliefs forum, I gotta find time to go there more often. Anyway, here is what stones are good for the kidneys....
Kidneys- Bloodstone, Beryl, Jadeite, Hematite, Citrine, Smokey

~Dreams are your own unique source of guidance and healing~

Gaia Angel

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(9/8/04 10:48 am)
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thank you vicky! i have bloodstone and hem!

Gaia Angel

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(9/9/04 6:16 am)
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Well, I spent the day yest. at the drs office. They switched my antibiotics again but he said this round will likely work because my sugars are a bit more under controll. Ifeel like crap and am eternally gratefull my hot water heater has been fixed...hot soaks have been a goddess blessing on my back and stomach! I spent a total of 3 hours yest soaking in the tub threw out the day.
I am fighting a fit of bronchitis and not for the first time wish desperately that i can quit smoking. I saw a girl i graduated high school with. her son and my oldest dauughter have classes together. They were trying to figure out if the spots on her lungs are cancer. If so, she has 3 children who may grow up without a mom. she said "do you remember when it was simple. and we couldnt wait to leave it behind?" I told her I did remember. I am sending her so much light...it must be horrendus to have to face the prospect of leaving your young things before they are fully grown.
I think hearing her story made me face my own mortality. I rode to after grad with this girl, hit the movie theater on friday nights, loaned her my definitions in lit. huddled in the corner checking out the exchange students, laughing and blushing. And shared sneaked ciggerettes in the bathroom with her.
What bothers me I guess the most is when she said "you know, 13 years and I STILL feel like that 17 year old girl...a child playing at being a woman." she laughed, but I was thinking "so do I....I dont feel a day over 16!" When do we begin to feel like adults? I hope I never do lol!

wolfscout1

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(9/14/04 5:10 am)
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Gaia Catch me on im when you can.

~~~
My Path , OWP , Larry's Place

sheilajw2002

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(9/14/04 5:42 am)
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Gaia, I hope you're feeling better soon. Sending prayers and energy your way. :hug

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twaddle

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(9/14/04 11:40 am)
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Thinking of you Gaia, hope you are feeling much better really soon. Glad you've got some hot water now - a good long soak helps heal most things i find! :hug

And growing up? I certainly never have and i dont intend to start now, lol! I definately intend to grow old as disgracefully as i can!

Gaia Angel

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(9/16/04 2:40 am)
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lol likewise twaddle...fighting it all the way.

I havent gotten any answer from her home so i am not sure if thats good or bad. Ya know, I can sit and write about some stuff....but i just cant talk about it if that at all makes sense.

I am feelings TONS better...still have slite burning and nagging coughs but am now (seemingly) on the mend. tests should be back in a day or 2. I havent been able to sleep in so long Im not sure i remember how! lol My deepest apologies to those I chat with daily...I honestly havent felt up to it. Hopefully I soon will, and hopefully when I do youll still have me. (as if, huh? lol)

Today is my 13th wedding anniversary and to be perfectly honest I am not sure I want to celebrate it. were it not for my kids, I could look you in the eye and with total heartfelt sincerity tell you 13 years ago I made the most horrible mistake of my life. I actually DID say that to paul a couple hours ago...seems I ruined his birthday. the whole time i was sick all i heard was how filthy the house was and how if social services showed up he wouldnt blame them for taking my kids away. I dont deserve them good moms dont let the house get this bad no matter how sick.... typical paul bullshit. Now he has bronchitis and a sore back...and ALL I have heard is "Honey please..." all damn day. at first I was ok with it...it is his birthday and he did sit in the drs office waiting for me. (even if he bitched) but you know...round about 10 hours later I began wishing his damn mother had used birth controll!

I despise that he can pull this person out of me that I hate. I am not the woman I behave like when I am with him. I hate that woman. or at least hate how she reacts to him. Lucki ly he HAS mellowed out a bit...I can roll my eyes and do my thing...I just need to learn to deal with his little passive aggressive brooding trips gracefully. Any advice, tips or tricks on THAT bad biy would be greatly appreciated by my dwindleing sanity.

I think its partly that he refuses to let me share my graphics and if i catch him or FORCE him to look at them I get a quick glance and a "uh huh"...I wanna know if I am improving to which he replied "how the hell should I Know?" you have eyes! Tonya I am not interested in that shit. (cause im interested in baseball...work bull shit...his mothers aches and pains) No im not but I FEIGN interest to make him feel he is of value. UGH!

THATS what it is! I have no value to him as a person...only as an object. and not even an object in a good way (like love or even sex) just someone to bitch at to and about. I swear if it werent for you guys I would have little too no human contact. You have no idea what you mean to me...each and everyone of you, monkians, horsefaces, climbers of hills, airheads tazmanian devils (ect. and so forth) and all! lol

Sis got 2 Fs on her mid term report...when the hell they come out with an F-???? an F wasnt bad enough??? you gotta say "Oh you suck so horribly bad Im gonna tag on a -!" She said "im grounded for 6 weeks" as soon as she came in. I think not...I KNOW the kid is applying herself...I study with her every day not the bitch minus giving teacher!

oh well better get off my bitch trip and get to sleep....thank you all so much for listening and making this a safe place to bitch IN! and my goddess!!!! for keeping it open!!!! :hug

All my love,
~GA~
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