Ok, yall.

I am planning my "run day". January is getting here fast, and with it will come the statute of limitations on my last and final legal oops. So, unless he does what he says and plants drugs or something on me, i may actually get away finally!

I have been thinking and the more i think the more i realize...he is not only kiling me, but i am killing him as well. I dont think any human being can live in a home with someone they hate and NOT have reprocutions on their health, no tto mention changes in their humanity.

He deleted my PSP and made my puter unstable...i went to rent a center and rented me another. Its back and forth bullshit like that thats got me worried about MY future. I can be cruel, spitefull and vindictive...a fact which most of my well meaning friends gloss over with a "but you were pushed to that point"....alll the pushing in the world doesnt excuse hatefullness...i preach this to my children all the time!

And whats worse, is i am soooooooo lonely i am actually starting to get a bit jealous of friends in loving relationships...and i am NOT a jealous person! But the older I get the more I realize, honestly, how many men is going to want a mom of 5 much less a witch? especially one with as much baggage as i am hauling around. Im just a bad investment and honestly if i were a guy i would run as fast and far as my legs could take me! Its not like im a great beauty to make up for my flaws either...Im so plain as to be unremarkable.

*sigh*
Its turning into a poor pitifull me day I know. Sorry